Monthly Archives: October 2011

Recommitment To Writing

“You need to wake up every morning knowing that you’re on the cusp of greatness. You were born to do great things and you’re minutes away from getting there.” – Arun Jay

It was the above quote from a text message sent to me by my friend Arun that inspired me to write this.

Writing is the only thing that makes me feel like part of the world. It makes me want to be part of the world. I function better when I do it everyday. I’m not 100% when I let go of its hand for longer than I should. It’s weird, because I can’t control the feeling of incompleteness. I might be doing whatever it is I’m doing and someone will ask, “Is everything alright?”, and I’ll say, “Yes” without a thought. But when I do think about it, I realize that the reason I’m not all there is because I haven’t put finger to keyboard in any meaningful way for a while. It’s now at the point where I can’t even help it. It just shows. It hasn’t been a tough year. It’s actually been pretty fucking amazing. With respect to writing though, it’s been somewhat of a challenge. I haven’t produced what I’ve wanted and, clearly, by what I’ve stated, I haven’t produced what I’ve needed either. And that’s what it’s all about isn’t it? Fulfilling our  needs. It’s by doing this that we achieve not only a sense of happiness but a sense of comfort and completion…a sense of bliss.

And with that being said: Continue reading


“Contour” Software

I could write a review of Contour but I don’t feel I have used it enough to be able to properly give it its due. But I will say this: with respect to outlining software, it’s the best I’ve seen. Contour takes you step by step through plotting and planning your stories within the friendly confines of the 3 Act Structure. If you are the type of person who needs an outline to write (AKA if you are anyone but Stephen King) then get it, use it and love it. It’s only $50 and is available for download from the link above. Not much more to say on the whole thing except…

“if you fail to plan, you plan to fail” – someone who wholly supported planning things

NaNoWriMo…it’s coming…

National Novel Writing Month (NaNoWriMo) is just under a month away. For those of you who have never heard of it, well…NaNoWriMo is pretty awesome. Obviously more info is available on their website (the link is in the first sentence) but the jist is this: Think of a story for a novel and write the entire thing during the month of November.

I did last year and I “won”, meaning I finished my novel. There’s no prizes per se except for the satisfaction that you wrote a novel (50,000 words) in a month. My approach was just to write about two people and their tumultuous relationship. I had no outline, nor did I have any idea what would happen until I sat down to write everyday. This may not be the best approach but it gave me a first draft that I could edit the hell out of and I’ve been trying to ever since December 1st, 2010 🙂 .
I suggest checking it out and doing it up…you never know what will happen!

Song Inspiration vol.79 (“Astoria”)

Unwritten Law – “Save Me”

What’s going on with the characters while this song plays (in my head) while I write about them:

Jack – Standing on the roof of his apartment building wondering if it would be the fall or impact that kills him.

Omar – In a heroin haze, he has a vision of what it would feel like to die and as the dream-like black curtain shrinks slowly to a small round circle before closing into perfect darkness signaling the end, he smiles and closes his eyes.

Erica – Walking home with post break-up conquest number 7 under her belt, she thinks and cries and laughs and wonders, “how the fuck did I end up here and when will I hate myself enough to be able to take control and to leave this fantasy and return to some semblance of who I used to be?”.

Nikki – Without her sister or her friends to take care of she realizes how much of herself she has let go in her quest to “always be there for others”.

Chris – Sitting in the shadows on the curb outside Holly’s apartment building getting high and drunk, he wishes he had the guts to walk up to her door and tell her how much of an asshole she is for once again wringing the life out of him with every pleasure filled moan most likely induced by the stranger he saw her walk in with not more than 10 minutes previous.

Cynthia – After losing what she thought was her dream job, Cynthia avails herself to any girl who will take her and any wine bottle that needs emptying and in doing so can’t get the thought of how it all used to be worth something and now, for whatever reason – maybe because her dream job wasn’t the dream it was dreamt to be, maybe because she never thought past the next weekend and the next celebrity story – it isn’t.

I think the lyrics lay it out pretty well:

“Had a bad day, don’t talk to me, gonna ride this out. My little black heart, breaks apart, with your big mouth. I’m sick, of my sickness, don’t touch me, you’ll get this. I’m useless, lazy, perverted and you hate me…You can’t save me, you can’t change me. Well, I’m waiting for my wake up call, everything, everything’s my fault.”

Love how Scott just stands there, hands in pockets, and sings it out:

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